We just arrived back in the city from two weeks of roaming the prairies.
I had forgotten the space in the open fields. Just drinking in the air that goes on forever reminded me to breathe. My lungs filled up and I felt myself expanding to meet the living openness.
Here I was invited to take up more room.
I realized that most of my life I’ve been trying to grow smaller and take up less space. I’ve shrunk my body, my mind and my voice. I was so proud of being a low maintenance daughter/friend/wife that I’ve hurt other people by not filling the space in their lives they opened for me.
And I realized, I need to grow! I don’t have to step on other people’s toes to dance, although in the learning process I most likely will.
I’ve started by asking for that extra tube ride and extra scoop of ice cream. I will eat until I’m satisfied and not stop hungry because I am afraid someone else wants to save that food for later. I will talk to my friends and invite myself over.
I will not be ashamed to have needs and will have the courage to acknowledge them.
I want to be like the prairie skies- large and alive with the power to invite others to breathe and take up their own space.